Sunday, December 21, 2014

There are things that your heart never forgets even if your mind does.

My Best FriendThere is a tugging at my heart today.  I've been thinking about this for a week now and at least I am able to think about it now and not cry with sadness.

I lost my best friend Brian on December 21, 1996.

I thought I was going to fade away when I learned of his death.  I remember my mamaw was afraid to tell me because she knew of our bond.

We met in middle school.  One time he wrote me a note asking if we could hold hands while walking to the buses and we did hold hands that day.  We became the best of friends.  I came to love Brian with all my heart like a brother figure.  We always did things together like the movies, talking on the phone, competing over the phone playing Mario Brothers.  We were just Michelle and Brian, who were there for each other for the good times and the bad times.

One time he kissed me (on the mouth with tongue) after we graduated high school and I was so mad at him and I didn't speak to him for days.  I just didn't look at Brian as a love interest he was just Brian my best friend.  He is still my best friend.

Even while married our friendship stayed the same because he was always coming over to hang out and play with H because she was just a baby.  I taught him how to play dominoes so he enjoyed that and I still have those dominoes!  And SCRABBLE, we would play Scrabble at times!!!!!  He’d be the first person I called in the morning and we would keep the phone lines busy with just talking normal chit chat. 

So, even though the memory may fade from my mind but my heart never forgets.  I love you Brian.

Best Friends Forever.

A song that I listened to a lot after Brian died:

Tracy Chapman ~ The Promise

If you wait for me
then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart