I am in a very grouchy mood. This is a warning.

Our internet is not working and I really needed to work on my other blog, Kid Friendly Asheville.

The 2 sick kids are back at school today. Their strep tests came back negative.

To top things off the roofers just showed up to bang some more on the roof.

I am barely hanging on. Like I am slowly drowning with anxiety.

Sent from my Blackberry as I try to keep my happy face on.

1 Wedding and NO Funerals.

It has been very busy for me since I last blogged. I have had so many emotions to deal with. I have cried. I have prayed. I have felt helpless.

Friday my 81 year old great aunt hemorrhaged. She was admitted to the hospital. Cancer. I went up their briefly. We all know how I feel about death so going up there was very difficult for me. Talking with her and telling her how much she meant to me and my love for her. She was just at my house playing with "Cupcake". That's what she calls Mads.

Thankfully my wonderful Lil sis went and picked up H and B2 from school and took them home for the night. That allowed me private time to cry and mope around.

This morning they took out her uterus and ovaries. They said her lymph nodes looked great and they don't think the cancer spread outside of her uterus. They did get out a tumor the size of an orange. They will know results in 4-5 days about her lymph nodes. She may not have to do chemo or radiation. Thank God she made it through surgery.

After that I had to attend a DAMA meeting. It was nice to get away and forget some of the sadness. I was gone for 3 hours. I really enjoyed myself.

As soon as I walked in the door Superdad and H left for a wedding. His friend at work was getting hitched. Since I was unable to go I encouraged H to go as his date. I told him people were going to think him a perv with such a younger woman on his arm. Ha Ha.

Soooo that left me, Ollie, Mads and B2 at home. Ollie played with playdoh. I picked up. B2 yacked on the phone with a girl and played XBox. We even ordered takeout from Asheville Pizza Company because they DELIVERED it to the house.

Ollie and Mads are in bed now. B2 is watching TV. Superdad and H are on the computerS. I am in bed thumbing up a storm. This is the second time typing up this post. I hit a button earlier and POOF everything was gone.

I am missing the BlogAsheville awards. I know it is a very long shot that Kid Friendly Asheville will win best new blog created in past 12 months BUT I can still be excited about just maybe winning. It's okay if I don't because at least KFA is being recognized in the community and I think that is awesome!! Thanks to everyone that voted for me.

Okay, I am going to give my thumbs some rest. Night Night!

Who was at the library today?

And told someone about my blog??

Thank you!! You ROCK!!


Sent from my blackberry as I rest in bed with a headache. A two day headache btw.

i am a nervous wreck...

My oldest daughter passed out cold at Target. Had to call 911.

At hospital waiting for a CT scan.




Sent from Blackberry.

On the road again...

Heading to Charlotte. Thinking:
OMG, it's going to be HOT there.

The Hazzards of Going to the Public Pool...

...near your old high school. You see people you knew in high school. ~gentle smile~


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Which way is up again?

Actual conversation at Sears waiting for our appointment.

Me and my MIL were talking face to face.

B2 interrupts me like ALWAYS.

I say, "Can't you see I'm talking on the phone?"

Ummmmm, but I wasn't. I guess you can tell when he always bothers me.

Anxiety Sucks!

I feel tighter than a guitar string! Seriously if I hear "mommy, mother or momma" one more time tonight I may cry.

I know the anxiety comes with PPD. That doesn't mean I have to like it.

Everyone is doing their own thing as I lay here in my bed with Baby M. Lil O has that Little People DVD playing and we know how I feel about Aaron Neville!!

Yep, I am going to lose it for sure. Ha Ha!

I am going to run away now. In all seriousness I am going to iron. I have an appointment tomorrow to get all 4 of my kids in a picture.

Hearing Aaron Neville...

Is like hearing nails on a chalkboard.

Lil O has a DVD of Little People and he sings on it.


Sent from my Blackberry Curve in my bedroom as I hide trying to get that singing out of my head.

Moms Supporting Moms

The meeting I went to was very nice. It was nice meeting other moms that understood what I had to say. I look forward to the next meeting.

I really suggest any person going through postpartum depression to find a support group.

I have received some really nice comments. Thank you for your support.

Things around here are quiet. Just the way I like it. Both babies are asleep and my two oldest aren't here. My husband is doing manly things as I sit here watching a rerun of Seinfeld.

Has anyone seen The Hulk? I want to try and see it soon. That and Hell Boy 2. They both look pretty entertaining.

Ha ha, I actually know someone who watches that Tila Tequila show. They were making fun of it on The Soup the other night. Then my sister called to see when it comes on. GASP!! ~shaking head~ I still love you miss.

Okay, guess I'll make something to eat.

We are so blessed.

I have been watching the news lately and it has been terrible. How can humans be so bad? I keep hearing all these awful things happening to small children. Then I look at own children and think how I would never ever hurt them or let anyone else hurt/abuse them.

With that being said...

Yesterday I was so happy and felt so blessed to be with my family for July 4. I enjoy evey minute with my mamaw and great aunt. I know they will not always be here for me/us. I took some pictures of all 4 of my kids together.

Lil O said after the fireworks-I want to do this again tomorrow. lol

I hope that everyone feels as blessed as I do.


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Testing

Nothing can stop me now! ~evil laugh~


Sent from my Blackberry Curve.