I'm losing faith.
Lately I’m on the verge of tears about everything. It can be a commercial, TV show and even while reading the kids their letters from Santa over the weekend. Everything is making me cry. Everything is weighing on my heart. I’m a very emotion woman and I’m so passionate about things.
Out of confidence I cannot go into many details but this week I helped someone very special to me go to Helpmate to seek help for herself and her children. Here it is Christmas and this person is homeless, in a sense, because of her useless husband! The one that emotionally abuses her and calls her names in front of her children and the man that has physically hurt her. This is the husband that she vowed in front of God to love forever. This is the man that she loved and started a family with because of love. The man that thought it was okay to abuse his wife. He’s a piece of shit to me now. *sorry for the anger*
I was sitting in this little office knowing her story as my heart literally broke as I sat there hearing. Feeling. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs and just cry but I didn’t let myself. I had to keep it together for her. I wanted to take the weight off of her shoulders and protect her from the world. I wanted to do that for her and I’m hurt that I’m not able to make it all better! I’m not able to say things that can help. I have a home. I have a husband. I have a place to sleep at night. I am safe.
I cannot make her safe. That breaks my heart. It makes me angry. I want to hurt him. I want to see the pain in his eyes just like I’ve seen in her eyes and the eyes of their children.
I just want women to know that they are not alone and to get help if they are in an abusive situation. Please, I beg you. Get yourself and your children out of the home. You don’t deserve the abuse and YOU do DESERVE better. Dammit, you need to WANT BETTER. There are so many options for you. Please get help if you are abused. Don’t worry about the material things because over time those things can be replaced. Please, show your children that they don’t have to live in an abusive home.
For over 30 years, Helpmate has served as Buncombe County's primary provider of crisis-level services designed specifically for - and offered exclusively to - victims of domestic violence and their children. We believe that to serve our clients, we must model a violence-free community that is founded in respect and equality. By providing safety, shelter, counseling, and advocacy, we empower each client to create a life that is free of violence. By providing education, we empower our community to create a world that is free of violence. We provide safe, confidential shelter to women and children who are leaving dangerous and potentially lethal living situations. http://www.helpmateonline.org/ Crisis line 828.254.0516
Please check your area for help !!!
People in an abusive situation just want to be loved and they think it will be better and that he will stop one day. Please before your kids don’t have a mother, due to death, get out of the house. You are loved! You are loved by your children. You are loved by your family. You are loved by your friends. You are loved by so many people. More than you will ever know. You are loved by me. I love you.
((Big hugs))** to all that have had to seek help because of abuse. Just know I pray that you are in a safe environment and that you have a wonderful fulfilling life ahead of you where you don’t have to be afraid.