This will be a womanly topic so men may choose not to go any further. Totally up to you though.
I started my period yesterday. My very last period before my scheduled hysterectomy. I should be dancing around the house rejoicing. I'm rather sad about it though. I'm sad about it because the hysterectomy means I will never be pregnant again. I had really thought I had come to terms with this. I guess not.
Superdad and I both think about my hysterectomy and not having anymore babies together. Seriously I think if Superdad said, "Let's have one more baby." I'd drag him to the bedroom and cancel that surgery. Well, reschedule it 10 months from now. (Something like that.)
I know that he will never say that and deep down I know I don't want to be pregnant again. This whole situation is full of mixed emotions. Like I know after having my hysterectomy I will have doubts about what I've done and have to mourn for my loss. I also know that in time I will be totally okay with my decision.
Also with this period comes the pain, the back ache, lots of blood loss, taking iron every day and just feeling like crap.
So, I know that after the hysterectomy I will feel like a new person.
Just give me time...