I think it's time to bid it farewell.
Here I am, a 36 year old mom blessed to have 4 healthy children. I've thought about having just one more baby but Superdad wasn't agreeable to that. I'm okay with that though. I think it's time to focus on the four children I have and focus more on myself and Superdad.
Yes, I will miss holding a new baby, breastfeeding a baby, sleeping with a new baby and even that new baby smell. But I am okay with not having any more children.
Yesterday I went for my vaginal ultrasound. Even though you cannot really diagnose adenomysis until a hysterectomy and biopsy but my scans are textbook photos for adenomysis.
I can do 1 of 3 things.
1 ~ Nothing
2 ~ Ablation
3 ~ Vaginal Hysterectomy
One is out because I'm tired of the heavy bleeding, low back pain and dealing with anemia.
Two is out because I just don't like the sound of the procedure. We'd have to take permanent birth control actions because I couldn't get pregnant after the ablation. I never wanted my tubes tied or I would have already had it done and Superdad doesn't want the Big V.
Three takes care of the problem.
My doctor said I would spend one night in the hospital, two weeks of no driving and two months of no housework or taking care of kids. I asked, "So, what's the downside?" HA HA!
She told me to come home to think and pray about it. There is no rush.
I really think that going in I had already made my mind up for the hysterectomy.
Now, I need to talk more to Superdad, my family and friends because I will need them during this process more than before.
Then I will call my doc to schedule the hysterectomy so I can be recovered by the holidays!!!