Comme ci, comme ca...

That seems to be my mood these days.  Not that it's a bad thing. 

I'm just stuck going through the mommy motions.  I knew it was bound to happen this summer.  I do this every day.  I do that every day.  I do all of this every day.

I've come to some realizations.

~ I'm not going to have anymore children.  I'm actually okay with it.  Now.  I have four wonderful children and I am so blessed that they are in my life.  They make me try to be a better person and for that I thank them.  At first I was sad about not having anymore because of the point of my life it meant I had reached.  Now, I am going to welcome the change and look forward to what's to come. 

~ I work so much to make everyone happy.  I take care of everyone in this house the best to my ability which leaves me totally exhausted by bed time.  Does this make sense?  I take care of our home.  I take care of the kids.  I cook.  I do laundry.  I do things for Superdad.  Dammit, I am June Cleaver with leopard print heels and pearls.

What do I do for myself to make me happy?  Besides crocheting and blogging?  Not a hell of a lot.

So, I'm going to start trying to do a few things for just me.  Things that Michelle enjoys.  If that means leaving all the kids at home with Superdad and heading downtown to enjoy coffee and a book store then that's what I'm going to do.  If that means I just find a park bench and read a book then that's what I'm going to do.  If that means dinner with my girlfriends WITHOUT kids then that's what I am going to do.

I think you get the idea.  So, more Michelle time it is. 

~ Life is an adventure.  Just live each day the best you can.  Enjoy it.  Cherish it.  Live without regrets.  Dance like no one is watching.  Sing in the shower.  Stay up all night.  Eat your favorite things. Just be happy and live in the moment. 

My point  ~ Stop and smell the roses.  Live each day like it could be your last.  Really, do this.  You will reach a certain point in your life and wonder where the hell did all your years go. 

That's all I can think of at the moment.

How do you make time for yourself???  What do you like to do to make you feel complete?

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