What's up with that?








Seriously how cool is this??  I'm debating myself.  I am supposed to venture to the doctor on Wednesday and Baby M goes for her Pediatric Dentist Post-Op on Thursday.  Let the snow come if the roads are drivable by then.  Okay Mother Nature?

I'm in a funk.  I'm in an anxiety/depression funk.  I'm restless, unable to sit down.  I'm unable to sleep.  My mind will not shut up.  I don't want to leave the house.  I am unable to leave the house emotionally.  I think about death and dying.  I don't want to die.  It depresses me more when I think about it.

Yes, I know I am totally screwed up.  Like everyone else I might add.  :)

I tried to get dressed today with hopes of collecting the kids from school and then grocery shopping.  I just couldn't do it.  I confessed to Superdad my feelings and then put my pj's back on.  He left work to get the kids, brought them home and went back to work.  When he gets off work he will grocery shop for me.

He's is such a great guy.  I'm glad he is able to "take" care of me on my bad emotional days.  Anxiety and depression are a private torture so to speak.  Either I need a new medication because I'm used to mine or maybe it's my physical trouble since like December.  I've even thought it could be like a weather depression.  I'm grasping at straws.  If I don't feel better soon I will call my doc.  Since I procrastinate on those things it may be next week.

Okay, that's all I got.  See you later alligator!

Comments

I'd leave words of encouragement, but depression can't be reasoned with.

A part of me thinks this may be a cry for attention. Okay, I'm listening. I'll take you to lunch. Hell, I'll even pay. Feel better, now?
Supermom said…
Why would I want attention Mikey???

I really think my medication needs to be looked at and adjusted.

:)

Thanks for thinking about lunch though. Maybe after the baby so I can meet your wife and lil guy.
carolinababe75 said…
So sorry Michelle, I have anxiety myself and it is a real pain to deal with, you feel like you could peel your own skin off and crawl out of your body. I feel for you, my friend. xoxoxoxo
Monica said…
why I have not heard from you anymore... I'm sorry...
Mrs Furious said…
" I'm in an anxiety/depression funk. "
You and me both.
It's a good thing we can't seem to get together or it might turn into a suicide pact (I jest) (kind of).

Still on pain meds? pain meds can mess with your mind. It might be that.
Keshia said…
I'm having a similar problem but different. Lol

I have trouble letting Coop go anywhere without me in the car too because I think about what if he got in a car wreck and something happened to him. If I was in the car with him something would probably happen to me too. I can't handle the thought of losing him and I think about it often.

Not healthy I know. I'm asking for my Zoloft back when I go to the dr in a couple weeks :)
Anna said…
I tried to take some antidepressant, but it made me feel worse. I wish there was something I could do to help. Maybe I can come over on Saturday and rub your shoulders.
Supermom said…
Thanks for all the comments! It means a lot!