RED ALERT!!! RED ALERT!!! Better run for cover.

I have to find my power animal, happy place or WHATEVER today!

My anxiety and OCD is in the RED zone today.  Last night I was snappish, grouchy and just not happy.  I just cried from exhaustion.

I don't like being this way.  It hurts me.  I'm just glad that I can be honest with my husband and kids when I feel this way.  When you live with someone that deals with anxiety and has a few MINOR OCD issues it's good to have a safe haven that you can express your feelings and your family help you through it.

Today, I am going to work on finding my happy place.  I'm going just do what needs to be done to heal myself.  I know it will require some cleaning, it always does for some reason.  Some people eat, some sleep when they are anxious.  I clean.  Perhaps having different people in my space has upset my balance?  Who really knows.

With Christmas coming I thought I would go through some posts from this year and schedule some "Best of 2009" blog posts for you.  If you have any recommendations of your favorite post then just give me a shout out.  I'd love to hear what you think about The Adventures of Supermom 2009.

Comments

Mrs Furious said…
Hang in there!
This past week with the power and snow AND Christmas looming just a few days away is anxiety provoking. I don't have an anxiety disorder and I have been near tears several times. (or maybe I do... haha)
Having extra people in and out would have pushed me over the edge.
Supermom said…
Mrs F ~

I'm trying!!!

I loved your Christmas cooking blog post!

Today I have three kids and a vacuum cleaner that is calling my name!

When are you leaving?? I had hoped to see you before you were away!
Atasha said…
I'm sorry you're going through this. I know it really sucks. I had a rough 2 weeks recently. I was shaking and nauseous for the entire time. My heart raced and I thought I would just drop. It's hard trying to take care of kids when you're feeling like that. It's getting better and one less thing to calm me is that xmas will not be at our house this year. That would have really put me over the edge.

My husband is a little clueless on what it is to have anxiety attacks. He thinks I can just shut it off.

Take Care and I hope you're feeling a little better.